I will Follow Him

Jacques Plante, Engl. by N. Gimbel & A. Altman

I will follow him,
Follow him where ever he may go
And near him I always will be,
For nothing can keep me away;
He is my destiny.

I will follow him,
Ever since he touched my heart I knew
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away,
Away from his love

I love him, I love him, I love him
And where he goes I'll follow,
I'll follow, I'll follow

I will follow him,
Follow him where ever he may go
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away.

We will follow him,
Follow him where ever he may go.
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep us away,
Away from his love

I love him, oh yes I love him; I'll follow,
I'm gonna follow.
True love, he'll always be my true love
Forever, from now until forever.
I love him, I love him, I love him
And where he goes I'll follow,
I'll follow, I'll follow.
He'll always be my true love, my true love,
My true love from now until forever,
Forever, forever.
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Nothing can keep us away,
Away from his love.

Photo Session

Every time I'm hunting pictures for client, I always captured by another scenery that really amazed me.

This picture was taken when Julie was still here. It was taken at Yakobus, Citraland.
The sky has been retouched and edited with Adobe Photoshop.

I always amazed with sky.
Whatever its color or shape.
Every time I look at it, it always describe me how great my God is.
In every dark shape its showed, there is always a shiny lines that comes out from behind. Sending me hopes that will always be in every matter I'm facing to. It flows me into peace which is I really like it ^^

Goossshhh... I'm so sleepy...

Hoaaaheemmm...

I am so sleepy rite now.
At two o'clock there should be a client come to comment my design,
but he sent me a short message telling me that he couldn't finish his works yet.
So we're making a new appointment for tomorrow.

Hoahhhmmm...

I am way too sleepy to work.
There's some illustrations I have to draw for an English Book for elementary school.
It is pretty difficult to me cause I have to draw not according to my style but according to the client's. Well, wish me luck then... ^^

Waiting for my PC finishing its work.
It is saving my work then I'll write it into CD and send it to Kupang Jaya.
Yuhuuuiii... driving to a far place.

7 minutes remaining.




WHEN GOD MADE YOU

It’s always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I’ll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I’ll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

He made the sun He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One Can’t move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it’s true
You’re for me and I’m for you
‘Cause my world just Can’t be right
Without you in my life

He must have heard every prayer I’ve been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

by Newton & Natalie Grant

I am listening to this song over and over again from last night till now. Hahaha.
But I couldn't remember the lyrics yet.
I try to but I couldn't. Hehehe.

Thanks to monex for sending me the mp3 files for my laptop has gone long time ago with this song vanished also ^^

A Better Day and a Worse Health

Confusing title, huh?

Let me explain then.
Today my feeling gets better.
There are some news and some responds that I've been looking for.

But, my health is getting worse. After running in the rain this morning and got some sneezing moments. My body is reducing its stamina.
So here I am writing some notes to remembering this day.
Why am I writing a lot?
It is more like to record all my life track, my feelings, my thoughts and my experiences than looking for anything else.

I was wondering that all of team members of servants of God in Kutisari is a melancholic type person. Hahaha. I've figure it out. Two of my teammates have their own blog, and what they're writing sometime is mellowing me hahaha ^^
Overall, it is nice to know it.
Yona has a liver trouble, just as I've got when I was on sixth grade.
It is really an uneasy way to get through. He is in the middle of Middle Semester Test. He can't take a bed rest, just as the doctor recommended. Please pray for him, brothers and sisters.

Another good news is was received from Singapore.
Dita said that she had an interview two days before and as a friend of her asking to the interviewers, she said that Dita will be join i her company soon. Hehehe. Congratulations! You're really get what you've been achieving. Keep up the good work for your final exams sista!
I've never expected that we're gonna be connected this way. What God has done in my life keep me amazed. And you're -Dita- one of the thing has been a proof of it ^^ thanks once more for supporting me in the way I myself couldn't imagine.

Today I also learning -again- about loving.

How it is so difficult to love unconditionally.
How it is uneasy to love without asking nothing in return.
How hurt when you're loving someone but it seems that what you've provided doesn't mean anything.
How awful when you're caring someone but it seems that you've been neglected.

You can't see anything only through your own eyes.
You've goota see through God's eyes and feel with God's heart.

As Mother Theresa said, 'give till it hurts'
you can't love without giving
and i guess that you can't love without hurts.

Keep on thanking God for all these feelings.
Come to the Father and all the broken heart will be healed.

Don't give up on loving.
God loves you till he gave all of his.
His love.
His life.
His heart.
His hands.
His feet.
ALL.

He has loved you till He hurts that much.

Surabaya in Bad Weather

Uhm...
This morning I've been driving around for 40 km.
Unexpected route.
Actually I was planning for paying phone's bill at kayoon.
After that I go back to the office so I can check my emails and do things to do.
Then, suddenly...
My client's assistant gave me a phone call.
She said that one of the product from the catalog I've finished the design is changed!
Waks! When will this all over? This project seems never-ending...
So, I decided to go to their office first before I came back to my own.

Since this morning, the sky is gray and dark on one side.
And the other one is bright and shiny.
How this could be happen?
So I thank God for I could see this rare sight and beautiful one.
It is so weird but miraculous, also.

Then on all of my way, I've been driving through rain and dry.
Sometime it cold, sometime it hot.
Really bad weather for my unwell body.
When I reached my office I was sneezing and feeling so unwell.
Yaiks!

All rite then, I've got to do many things before I'm becoming worse.

Sudden Blessing!

Waaa kalut kalut.
Tadi pagi Meikel kasi kabar kalo sakit.
Hari ini ga masuk kerja.
Akhire tadi beliin makanan n obat trus anter ke rumah.
Siang dia kasi kabar kalo sik ga enak. Malah tambah mual-mual. Pusing.
Hihihi... bukan hamil, sodara-sodara! Maag e kumat.

Akhire dia minta tolong gantiin buat nti malem mimpin pujian.
Walaah. Aku masi di tempat klien tadi disms gitu akhire ngacir ke kamar mandi buat pipis (ga nyambung, rik! -biarin!).
Thank God aku wes tau lagu2e. Jadi e ini nge print. Trus nyoba nyanyi2 dewe di kantor wakakaka.
Sempet ngericuki christine buat nyariin lirik yang aku ndak pasti. Tapi akhire nemu juga di inernet setelah berusaha keras hahaha.

Duh duh uda deh. Bentar mo pulang ae. Persiapan hati. Laper pula. Mau makan. Tadi siang makan cuman dikit. Doain aku yaaa... pelayanan pertama tanpa persiapan, yang nyiapin lagunya juga si meikel tu, moga2 isa 'click' hehe.

C ya.

One week pass from Easter

Today is a new day.
First Sunday after Easter Day.

I feel that time is flying. Lots of things has done and lots of things hasn't done yet. Feel like that 24 hours a day isn't enough. There are so many things has been postponed.

On service at church this morning, I was sitting right next to the musician, Cik Lusi.
As we practiced on Friday night, there are some part of the music that become a little bit difficult to play as a musician. For Ko Samuel's creativity, he arranged a different variation to play. I hope this really motivate Cik Lusi to learn how to be more creative, as she said to herself that night ^^
The air condition was too cold for me. For my unwell body is not really comforting. But then there is no time to decrease the air condition's temp.
The bell has rang.
Then the nervous come.
Miss Linda Bustan as a preacher entered the room.
Then song after song we sang.
There were two song that we sang just as we practiced.
But I felt that the church was unable to follow what we sang.
I can see that Miss Linda Bustan get the same feeling with me.
There should be a better coordination for next time.
The sound system has been very better than Good Friday service. It was really bad. Lots of feedback and cracking voices come out from speakers. Absolutely annoying and noisy.

I can't really concentrate when bible verses reading.
And it continues when the preaching.
I'm not really understand what the essence of the preaching this morning.
As far as I understand and I can apply to my days ahead is that I should be like the disciples. For the first times after Jesus' crucifixion, they were very frightened as they locked doors in the house they were gathering. (John 20:19)
But then after Jesus has appeared and stood in the middle of them, they were rejoicing. (John 20:20)
It hadn't reach the end , yet.
The disciples went and spread the truth to everyone they met.

Act 5:28-33 tell us that they become very brave.
As Jesus appearance in the middle of them has become a very strong motivation to them to tell the good news. They were bravely expressing what the real truth is, even though death would be the penalty from the council. (verse 33)
But they couldn't be stopped.

That is what we must do.
Once we heard the good news.
Once we know the real truth is.

We must tell it to others bravely.


After the service, it was raining.
Not very hard, it was light.
Then I was sweeping and mopping the house.
It was very dirty as there were some workmen repairing the pool inside the house.
After that I was driving back to church for attending a choir practice.
Preparation for our dear friends' wedding: Cik Lusi and Mang Armand on 2nd June.
Let's we pray for them preparing their wedding and also for shaping their future together ^^ and especially please keep on praying for the recovery of Mang Armand's father.

The choir will sing 2 song.
The first song I have already known.

Betapa Mulia

One of my favorite song that I have sang as choir member ^^
As I was singing this song, I can 'hear' Maudy playing the piano.
Lil creepy, huh? Hahahaha.
Mod, you're still in here even though you're far far away there.
Memorizing for moments we've been through together.
Days and nights we've been spent for practices and meetings.
Lots of memories has been flashing inside my head :p miss you.

These past two days

I feel that I've been neglected.
Why?

Lots of people surround me didn't give me answers that I asked.
Is it just my bad feeling or is it for real?
Do they do it for some purposes?
What is it then?

I don't understand.
I can't figure it out.

When a feedback has come,
it didn't satisfied me at all.
It give me no answer still bout what I asked.

Starting a new question, even worst.

Well, I thought I have changed -I hope.
Then I realized that I haven't changed at all.

There are some old me stay inside.
Some part that keep on demanding more for myself.
Making myself comfort.

My ego.

Is it because I don't have any right to ask questions?
Should I stop to ask, then?
Or may I still allowed to ask?
Even though there isn't any answer.

Should I give up?
Should I quit?
Should I stop?

Feeling that I am so selfish.
Feeling that I was replied when I was needed.
Feeling that I must be needed by anyone.

What a real peacock philosophy!!

Hahaha ^^

Don't be, please.

Kepengennn

Kemaren malem pas latian persiapan buat besok kebaktian ketemu tante pur. Tante barusan pulang semarang. Waaa pengennn.
Trus cerita ke salatiga, bandungannnn waaaaaaa.
Tambah pengennnn.

Semuae emang lagi jadi idaman tuuu.
Hmmmm...

Salatiga.
Dulu tiap seminggu sekali ke sana.
Makan nasi empal dibungkus daun pisang.
Sambel e pedes e ampun-ampunan. Hahaha.
Enaaaakkkk tapie. Pecel kartowali.
Soto nggaras.
Astagaaaa. Laper laper.
Trus juga kumpul bareng keluarga besaaarrr.
Asik banget. Palagi ketemu seteru ku. Sepupu tersayang hahaha.
Pertama ketemu pasti masih akur-akur aja.
Tapi setelah beberapa lama ditinggal maen berdua akhirnya salah satu pasti nangis. Hihihihi. *krauk* miss you, ve ^^

Bandungan.
Pengen naek kuda.
Walo dulu pas cilik naek kuda trus kuda ne lari2 banter banget.
Mana ndak ada sing punya kuda. Aku naek dewe an. Hahaha.
Sampe ngeri tu carae brenti piye. Tapi juga campur rasa seneng.
Bangga gitu lo. Cilik cilik naek kuda dewe.
Kuda ne lari cepet banget pisan hahaha.
Mbuh itu ekspresiku kayak apa.
Antara pucet mbek seneng kali yaaa hahahaha.
Trus pulang-pulang bokong sampe njarem sampe 2-3 hari kemudian hihihi ^^
Duh kangen banget niii...
Pengen tahu bandungan
Pengen sari deleeeeee
Waaaaaa

Gara-gara Tante Pur ni. Hehehe.
Jadi homesick.

Hueee T.T