Belajar dari Nyuci Beras

Ide ini muncul pas nyuci beras kemaren pagi.
Waktu coba bersihin beras yang aku cuci, aku brusaha tekan sekeras mungkin sebutir beras.
Ternyata hasilnya ngga ada. Lantas aku teringat pada perkataan Yesus mengenai iman yang sebesar biji sesawi. Jadi penasaran wujud biji sesawi itu kayak apa n seberapa besar. Apakah sebesar butiran beras dalam genggamanku?
Yah, andaikata demikian, maka iman tidak perlu lebih besar dari biji sesawi, tidak perlu lebih besar dari sebutir beras maka sudah mampu memindahkan gunung.

Apa yang terjadi apabila ternyata lebih besar?
Bahaya yang aku sadari saat memencet butiran beras...
Bila iman tersebut lebih besar dari butiran beras bisa jadi makin rapuh.
Tidak sepadat dan sekuat sebutir beras yang kecil.
Bahaya kesombongan pun akan mengintip dan hadir.
Suatu hal yang terlalu besar daripada kebutuhan kita akan menghantar kita kepada kesombongan.
Saat kita berkata kepada diri kita, kita bukan orang yang sombong, itu pula saat di mana kita sudah sombong.

Bila Yesus berkata tentang sebiji sesawi lah iman yang sanggup memindahkan gunung, maka seberapa besar kita ingin memiliki iman?
Seberapa layakkah kita memindahkan gunung, karya ciptaanNya?

Dari sebutir beras aku belajar tentang kesombongan.
Syukur kepada Allah untuk kesempatan aku mencuci beras ^^

The Power Of The Dream

Celine Dion

Deep within each heart
There lies a magic spark
That lights the fire of our imagination
And since the dawn of man
The strength of just "I can"
Has brought together people of all nations

There’s nothing ordinary
In the living of each day
There’s a special part
Every one of us will play

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
As the world gives us its best
To stand apart from all the rest
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Your mind will take you far
The rest is just pure heart
You’ll find your fate is all your own creation
Every boy and girl
As they come into this world
They bring the gift of hope and inspiration

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

There’s so much strength in all of us
Every woman child and man
It’s the moment that you think you can’t
You’ll discover that you can

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us

The power of the dream
The faith in things unseen
The courage to embrace your fear
No matter where you are
To reach for your own star
To realize the power of the dream
To realize the power of the dream

Jesus Clears the Temple

John 2:12-25 (New International Version)
Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society


Jesus Clears the Temple

12 After this he went down to Capernaum with his mother and brothers and his disciples. There they stayed for a few days.

13 When it was almost time for the Jewish Passover, Jesus went up to Jerusalem.

14 In the temple courts he found men selling cattle, sheep and doves, and others sitting at tables exchanging money.

15 So he made a whip out of cords, and drove all from the temple area, both sheep and cattle; he scattered the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables.

16 To those who sold doves he said, "Get these out of here! How dare you turn my Father's house into a market!"

17 His disciples remembered that it is written: "Zeal for your house will consume me."[a]

18 Then the Jews demanded of him, "What miraculous sign can you show us to prove your authority to do all this?"

19 Jesus answered them, "Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days."

20 The Jews replied, "It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and you are going to raise it in three days?"

21 But the temple he had spoken of was his body.

22 After he was raised from the dead, his disciples recalled what he had said. Then they believed the Scripture and the words that Jesus had spoken.

23 Now while he was in Jerusalem at the Passover Feast, many people saw the miraculous signs he was doing and believed in his name.[b]

24 But Jesus would not entrust himself to them, for he knew all men.

25 He did not need man's testimony about man, for he knew what was in a man.

Footnotes:
[a] John 2:17 Psalm 69:9
[b] John 2:23 Or and believed in him



Pelajaran hari ini tentang Yesus menyucikan Bait Allah.
Bacaan kali ini lumayan mbuat aku tercengang-cengang deh.
Bukan tentang isinya, tetapi lebih ke judul perikopnya.
Bukan mengenai judul perikopnya sendiri tapi lebih ke pemenggalan cerita nya.
Duh mbulet yah...

Gini gini... ndak tau juga hal ini artinya apa.
Pelajaran minggu lalu dari Yohanes 2:1-11 tentang Perkawinan di Kana (judul perikop oleh LAI, 1998). Pas aku belajar minggu lalu ndak mikir apapun mengenai mau belajar sampe perikop mana. Soalnya abis perikop Perkawinan di Kana itu ada perikop Yesus di Kapernaum dan Yesus menyucikan Bait Allah. Aku cuman ngeliat perikop setelah Perkawinan di Kana kok pendek banget n sekilas baca juga agak-agak ngga nyambung. Akhirnya aku putusin buat dibaca minggu depannya aja (yang berarti itu hari ini).
Nah, ternyata berdasarkan NIV perikop Yesus di Kapernaum dan Yesus menyucikan Bait Allah, jadi satu perikop! Wah, cukup kaget juga ngeliatnya. Kebetulan yang bermakna. Memang sih, ngga ada yang kebetulan dalam hidup ini. Segala sesuatu nya pasti ada maknanya ^^ Yah, cukup tercengang gitu pas tahu hal ini. Yang jelas aku sampe sekarang belum tau artinya apa hehehe.

Oke, hari ini belajar mengenal Yesus lebih dalam lagi.
Bacaan kali bercerita tentang Yesus yang murka!
Sosok Yesus yang tampaknya lemah lembut dan kasih ternyata bisa juga murka!
Aku udah pernah tau cerita ini. Udah pernah ngebayangin juga gimana kejadiannya. Lumayan mbuat ngeri juga kalo misalnya aku berada di sana. Pasti keadaan kacau balau. Semua panik dan kalang kabut.

Setelah Yesus meninggalkan Kana, Yesus, IbuNya dan saudara-saudaraNya serta murid-muridNya pergi ke Kapernaum dan tinggal di sana hanya beberapa hari.
(hal ini dicatat Yohanes -mungkin; ini tafsiranku- untuk menjelaskan bahwa para undangan yang datang di Kana adalah orang-orang ini dan juga menjelaskan bahwa mereka semua ini (bisa jadi) tidak semuanya ikut ke Yerusalem. Benar atau tidaknya aku ngga tau, hehehe. Maybe kalo ada yang tau bisa leaving comments supaya kita semua bisa lebih diperkaya. Thanks ^^

Kemudian Yesus dan murid-muridNya (ini pasti, lihat ayat 17) pergi ke Yerusalem untuk menghadiri perayaan Paskah orang Yahudi. Di sana Yesus menemukan banyak pedagang lembu, kambing domba dan merpati. Ditambah lagi ada orang-orang penukar uang. Wah wah... Bait Allah jadi kayak pasar. Rame, banyak orang jual beli, tawar menawar. Ck.. ck.. ck... Gimana mau beribadah dengan khusyuk kalau suasana penyambutannya kayak gini?

Di sini aku belajar bahwa Yesus juga mementingkan suasana yang teduh dan tenang untuk mengawali saat-saat kita beribadah. Bukannya berisik, heboh, rame tawar menawar gitu.

Yah, sebenernya niat orang-orang yang berdagang itu baik. Awalnya, mereka menyediakan jasa untuk berjualan hewan-hewan kurban bertujuan supaya orang-orang yang datang dari jauh tidak perlu repot-repot membawa binatang kurbannya. Karena jaman itu kan belum ada pesawat or kendaraan roda empat, ke mana-mana jalan kaki atau naek unta atau keledai dan sejenisnya. Nah, bisa dibayangin banyaknya hambatan dan rintangan yang mungkin terjadi di dalam perjalanan. Kalau mereka membawa hewan kurban dari rumah kan bisa-bisa dirampok di jalan, hewan tersebut terluka, tergores, atau berat badannya berkurang -jadi kurus, sakit dan lain sebagainya. Nah, kalau sesampainya di Yerusalem, hewan tersebut sudah tidak layak dipersembahkan? Padahal yang dipersembahkan adalah yang terbaik dan tidak bercacat. Kan rasanya mubazir perjalanan jauh-jauh ternyata hewan tersebut tidak layak dipersembahkan untuk Tuhan. Nah, baik kan tujuan para pedagang ini? Namun lama-kelamaan mereka mulai mengambil keuntungan yang besar untuk jasa mereka. Keuntungan tersebut memang untuk pembangunan Bait Allah itu sendiri (ini juga tafsiranku sih ^^). Namun kemudian mereka juga mengagung-agungkan Bait Allah tersebut (lihat ayat 20). Segitu bangganya mereka pada bangunan tersebut.

Di sinilah Yesus tidak suka.
Di sinilah Yesus marah.
Di sinilah Yesus murka!

Yesus membuat cambuk dari tali dan mengusir lembu dan kambing domba.
Menurut terjemahan NIV aku memahaminya bahwa Yesus mengusir lembu dan kambing domba, bukannya pedagangnya. Jadi Yesus memakai cambuk tersebut untuk mengusir lembu dan kambing domba, bukan pedagang. Sebelum ini aku punya bayangan kalau Yesus mencambuk para pedagang untuk pergi dari Bait Allah. Yah, lumayan sadis gitu pikirku. Masa Yesus ngga menghargai manusia (walaupun di jalan salibNya Yesus disiksa melebihi Yesus mengusir para pedagang ini)? Tapi kemudian ternyata aku menemukan bahwa Yesus memakai cambuk buatanNya untuk mengusir lembu dan kambing domba.

Yesus masih menghargai orang yang sudah berbuat salah. Tidak disamakan dengan barang dagangan mereka.

Koin-koin penukar uang diobrak-abrik, meja penukar uang dibalikkanNya.
Wuih...! Segitu murkanya Yesus.
Bener-bener di luar dugaan kali ya.
Isa bayangin murid-murid Yesus terbengong-bengong ngeliat Guru mereka melakukan ini?

Kemudian Yesus menghardik penjual merpati,
"Bawa pergi semua ini!! Beraninya kamu mengubah Rumah BapaKu menjadi pasar?!"

Wuih... kasar. Dan membingungkan.
Yang mendengar tentu terheran-heran.
Yang melihat tentu tercengang.
Apa yang Yesus perbuat dan katakan cukup mengundang pertanyaan dan perdebatan.

Di benak murid-murid, mereka teringat satu ayat dari Mazmur 69:10
"Cinta untuk rumahMu menghanguskan aku..." -mazmur Daud di saat kesesakan.
Mereka melihat kecintaan Yesus terhadap Bait Allah -Rumah Tuhan membuat Yesus sangat murka. Cinta yang berapi-api dan penuh semangat. Saking cintanya, Yesus melihat Rumah Tuhan diperlakukan sedemikan, hatiNya sakit. Mencintai hingga sakit. Yesus merasakannya.

Orang-orang Yahudi mempertanyakan.
Siapa Yesus? Berani-beraninya Dia bertindak demikian?!
Apa hakNya?

Yesus memberi jawab, "Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days."
Astaga, mustahil!
Bait Allah ini dibangun selama 46 tahun! -bayangkan seberapa megah bangunan Bait Allah ini. Coba ingat-ingat seberapa lama bangunan2 megah yang berdiri di sekitar kita dibangun. Wahai para arsitek, seberapa besar dan megah bangunan yang mungkin terjadi bila dibangun dalam waktu 46 tahun?
Dan Yesus mau mendirikannya lagi dalam waktu 3 hari.

Sebenarnya yang dimaksud Yesus sebagai Bait Allah adalah diriNya sendiri.
DiriNya akan hancur sebagai ganti manusia berdosa. Mati sebagai hukuman dosa. Dan akhirnya pada hari yang ketiga bangkit di dalam kemenangan. Maut dikalahkan!

Inilah yang harus dilakukan sebagai orang berdosa.
Hati yang hancur. Datang kepada Yesus. Segala kesombongan, keangkuhan, harga diri, rasa sok... semuanya, dihancurkan terlebih dahulu untuk kemudian memperoleh pengharapan yang baru di dalam kebangkitan Yesus!

Hal ini pula yang kemudian diingat oleh para murid-murid Yesus (setelah Yesus bangkit). PerkataanNya yang di sinilah yang kemudian teringat oleh mereka. Membuat mereka percaya.
Akhirnya mereka paham. Dan percaya pada Kitab Suci dan perkataan Yesus.
Berarti pada saat murid-murid melihat dan mendengar apa yang Yesus katakan saat itu tidak mereka pahami. Tidak mereka percayai. Mereka sama dengan orang Yahudi. Mustahil membangun Bait Allah dalam 3 hari.

Tidak semua hal yang disampaikan akan langsung dipahami.
Tidak semua perkataan akan diingat.
Tidak semua perbuatan akan dikenang.
Semasa kita hidup.
Sepanjang pengetahuan kita.
Yesus mengalaminya.
Apa yang Yesus katakan banyak tidak dipahami.
Apa yang Yesus lakukan sering tidak diingat.
Namun lama sesudah semuanya terjadi barulah murid-murid bisa memahami.
Mereka mempercayainya, bahkan!

Jadi...
jangan bosan-bosan untuk berbuat
jangan lelah-lelah untuk berkata
jangan capek-capek mendengarkan
jangan malas-malas untuk belajar!


Have a blessed Sunday ^^

Hari Kartini

Selamat hari Kartini. Hihihi, suatu ucapan yang baru kali aku ucapin. Heran yah, padahal udah 27 tahun ngerayainnya tapi baru kali ini menjadi kali yang pertama. Tadi pagi di deket rumah banyak anak-anak kecil pake konde lengkap pake kebaya, yang cowok pake blangkon hahahaha. Mereka menuh-menuhin jalanan. Sampe mobil n segala macem kendaraan yang laen disuruh brenti dulu, kasi mereka jalan. Hihihi. Meriah banget tadi jalanan. Warna warni.

Inget-inget jaman dulu kok aku perasaan ndak pernah pake pakaian daerah pas kartinian yah? Yang aku inget tu cicik ku n kokoku. Mereka pake baju daerah, dikonde, kokoku pake blangkon hahahahahaahahahhahahaha. Lucu bangettt. Ndak isa mbayangin mesti ya ngeliat kokoku pas kecil pake blangkon. Hihihi. Ada fotoe kok. Bukti nyata. Kalo ndak ada fotoe juga aku ndak mungkin tau la. Hihihi.

Kok isa ya kecil-kecil mau didandani kayak gitu. Nek aku pasti ndak mau deh, gatel kabeh rasae. Kan panasss... palagi pake konde... hiiiyyy rambute sapa ituuuu????!!! Hahahaha. Mungkin ini penyebabe aku ndak pake pakaian daerah kayake yaaa. Hahahaha.

Memaknai hari kartini... apa yah...
Ngga ada suatu hal yang spesial yang terlintas di otak.
Cuman ada emansipasi wanita, habis gelap terbitlah terang. Apalagi yah...
Biasalah inget-inget pelajaran es de dulu.
Makam Ibu Kartini ada di Rembang, Jepara, yang terkenal sebagai kota ukiran. Hihihi.

Foto di atas aku ambil kemaren pas hunting foto di Kutisari Indah. Kontras banget dengan langit yang mendung n tanpa ada awan secuil pun, atau malah itu semua awan yah? Hehehe. Kali ini langite tanpa efek apapun ^^

I will Follow Him

Jacques Plante, Engl. by N. Gimbel & A. Altman

I will follow him,
Follow him where ever he may go
And near him I always will be,
For nothing can keep me away;
He is my destiny.

I will follow him,
Ever since he touched my heart I knew
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away,
Away from his love

I love him, I love him, I love him
And where he goes I'll follow,
I'll follow, I'll follow

I will follow him,
Follow him where ever he may go
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away.

We will follow him,
Follow him where ever he may go.
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep us away,
Away from his love

I love him, oh yes I love him; I'll follow,
I'm gonna follow.
True love, he'll always be my true love
Forever, from now until forever.
I love him, I love him, I love him
And where he goes I'll follow,
I'll follow, I'll follow.
He'll always be my true love, my true love,
My true love from now until forever,
Forever, forever.
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Nothing can keep us away,
Away from his love.

Photo Session

Every time I'm hunting pictures for client, I always captured by another scenery that really amazed me.

This picture was taken when Julie was still here. It was taken at Yakobus, Citraland.
The sky has been retouched and edited with Adobe Photoshop.

I always amazed with sky.
Whatever its color or shape.
Every time I look at it, it always describe me how great my God is.
In every dark shape its showed, there is always a shiny lines that comes out from behind. Sending me hopes that will always be in every matter I'm facing to. It flows me into peace which is I really like it ^^

Goossshhh... I'm so sleepy...

Hoaaaheemmm...

I am so sleepy rite now.
At two o'clock there should be a client come to comment my design,
but he sent me a short message telling me that he couldn't finish his works yet.
So we're making a new appointment for tomorrow.

Hoahhhmmm...

I am way too sleepy to work.
There's some illustrations I have to draw for an English Book for elementary school.
It is pretty difficult to me cause I have to draw not according to my style but according to the client's. Well, wish me luck then... ^^

Waiting for my PC finishing its work.
It is saving my work then I'll write it into CD and send it to Kupang Jaya.
Yuhuuuiii... driving to a far place.

7 minutes remaining.




WHEN GOD MADE YOU

It’s always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I’ll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I’ll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

He made the sun He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One Can’t move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it’s true
You’re for me and I’m for you
‘Cause my world just Can’t be right
Without you in my life

He must have heard every prayer I’ve been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

by Newton & Natalie Grant

I am listening to this song over and over again from last night till now. Hahaha.
But I couldn't remember the lyrics yet.
I try to but I couldn't. Hehehe.

Thanks to monex for sending me the mp3 files for my laptop has gone long time ago with this song vanished also ^^

A Better Day and a Worse Health

Confusing title, huh?

Let me explain then.
Today my feeling gets better.
There are some news and some responds that I've been looking for.

But, my health is getting worse. After running in the rain this morning and got some sneezing moments. My body is reducing its stamina.
So here I am writing some notes to remembering this day.
Why am I writing a lot?
It is more like to record all my life track, my feelings, my thoughts and my experiences than looking for anything else.

I was wondering that all of team members of servants of God in Kutisari is a melancholic type person. Hahaha. I've figure it out. Two of my teammates have their own blog, and what they're writing sometime is mellowing me hahaha ^^
Overall, it is nice to know it.
Yona has a liver trouble, just as I've got when I was on sixth grade.
It is really an uneasy way to get through. He is in the middle of Middle Semester Test. He can't take a bed rest, just as the doctor recommended. Please pray for him, brothers and sisters.

Another good news is was received from Singapore.
Dita said that she had an interview two days before and as a friend of her asking to the interviewers, she said that Dita will be join i her company soon. Hehehe. Congratulations! You're really get what you've been achieving. Keep up the good work for your final exams sista!
I've never expected that we're gonna be connected this way. What God has done in my life keep me amazed. And you're -Dita- one of the thing has been a proof of it ^^ thanks once more for supporting me in the way I myself couldn't imagine.

Today I also learning -again- about loving.

How it is so difficult to love unconditionally.
How it is uneasy to love without asking nothing in return.
How hurt when you're loving someone but it seems that what you've provided doesn't mean anything.
How awful when you're caring someone but it seems that you've been neglected.

You can't see anything only through your own eyes.
You've goota see through God's eyes and feel with God's heart.

As Mother Theresa said, 'give till it hurts'
you can't love without giving
and i guess that you can't love without hurts.

Keep on thanking God for all these feelings.
Come to the Father and all the broken heart will be healed.

Don't give up on loving.
God loves you till he gave all of his.
His love.
His life.
His heart.
His hands.
His feet.
ALL.

He has loved you till He hurts that much.

Surabaya in Bad Weather

Uhm...
This morning I've been driving around for 40 km.
Unexpected route.
Actually I was planning for paying phone's bill at kayoon.
After that I go back to the office so I can check my emails and do things to do.
Then, suddenly...
My client's assistant gave me a phone call.
She said that one of the product from the catalog I've finished the design is changed!
Waks! When will this all over? This project seems never-ending...
So, I decided to go to their office first before I came back to my own.

Since this morning, the sky is gray and dark on one side.
And the other one is bright and shiny.
How this could be happen?
So I thank God for I could see this rare sight and beautiful one.
It is so weird but miraculous, also.

Then on all of my way, I've been driving through rain and dry.
Sometime it cold, sometime it hot.
Really bad weather for my unwell body.
When I reached my office I was sneezing and feeling so unwell.
Yaiks!

All rite then, I've got to do many things before I'm becoming worse.